It feels good, after 2 1/2 years, to finally be developing relationships with women in our church. What was holding me back? I'm not really sure, but something sure was. I still feel a little tentative, but this is a great beginning. I'm discovering new avenues of openness and transparency, finding things in common with different women, and seeing hope of deeper relationship that I hadn't seen before.
Also very nice, however, to come home to my warm kitties and sleeping husband (who has a cold). The quiet house, the cats eager for love, and a good book are a wonderful way to end a week, close out a quiet Saturday.
And, after a week of feeling sad about leaving my job, I'm feeling much more peaceful tonight. I've been focusing on the wrong things - what I'll miss about working. My excitement is building for the things I'm going to be able to do because I'm not working, and that's what I'm going to concentrate on this week! Feels great to have the right thing in focus...finally! I was also reminded tonight that, as a follower of Christ, I have the priviledge of living under grace. What does that mean in practical terms? Even if this isn't God's perfect timing for me to leave this job (for example, if I pushed what I want over what God wants), He'll still perfectly use this circumstance to accomplish what He wants not only in my life but in the lives of all those He loves (and that's everyone!). So encouraging to remember that.
So my new week begins tomorrow...my last week at work! It's been a long journey from hating every day at work to not even being sure I wanted to quit. Time to start planning what I'm going to do, and how I'm actually going to get things accomplished! Better buy some more pages for my planner! ;-)
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