Mixed feelings

Well, just one more week at my job! Such a strange mix of feelings.... I've had to give up a job I loved because I've moved; I've given up jobs I didn't like; I've never given up a job I loved. Why am I doing it?

Simple...there are many other things I'd like to be doing in my life that I just can't accomplish while working (or they'd be very difficult!). This has been a very strange journey from 2 years ago having to force myself to get up and go into work, to actually liking what I do. I enjoy my co-workers so much, helping the patrons, feeling like I make a difference. I like walking through the building feeling a part of a team, feeling so confident in myself.

When I'm at home, that's where I want to be. When I'm at work, I feel this jumble of confusion. I'll just have to find ways to get those good feelings about work, but without the paycheck. And I have to keep my focus on the things I will be able to accomplish because of my freed time.

Weird, isn't, the journey that we take in this life? So strange the mix of head and heart that we human beings are. I hope I don't regret this decision. I hope that my days at home, working on my personal goals will just fill me with joy. I hope I can maintain the relationships I've begun building here. I hope, I hope...